Right now, I am in the throes of that irritable anxiety that makes it impossible to do much of anything. This is the reality of Bipolar II. This is what I have managed to overcome until lately. The irritable anxiety is the worst part for me. I don’t want to do anything. I’m pushing myselfContinue reading “Bipolar Relapse: I hate my job”
Author Archives: I.O. Kirkwood
OCDiculous
OCD is an illness of fear, of an intense desire to feel secure. Because you have experienced some sort of violence, you become susceptible to the condition. It only takes one event. One.
Suicide Is NOT Sudden
Until it becomes too much to bear. The pain, the suffering, the crushing loneliness all contribute to the eventual, and often unsuccessful, attempt to take one’s own life. We only hear about the successful suicides. The “sudden” suicides.
When Legend’s Rise: Godsmack’s Pluto Transit
When Legends Rise April 27, 2018 Spinefarm Records Godsmack has always been the one artist that voiced the feelings that I locked away beneath a smiling façade. As the band grew, my appreciation for their work grew. Until—1000 HP. I called it “canned” Godsmack. I demanded something more, something better, than revisiting a past thatContinue reading “When Legend’s Rise: Godsmack’s Pluto Transit”
The Beast Within
Poetry from I.O. Kirkwood
Why I’m Single and Why You Might Be Too
Divorce is almost inevitable for a married couple in the United States. The psychologists would have us believe that only fifty percent of marriages end in divorce. They gloss over the constraints of the trials, which measures the three years between marriage and divorce. Another constraint is the observation of only heterosexual marriages.
Privilege is a Dirty Word
This is a terrible topic to touch, but I will explain my understanding of what privilege is and what it is not. It isn’t that rich, attractive, light-skinned, Christian men are too “clueless” or not “intelligent” enough to understand the concept of privilege. But the way the media has twisted it, privilege has become aContinue reading “Privilege is a Dirty Word”
Fury + Fear = General Anxiety Disorder?
Fury is what I feel when I’m helpless. Plus fear is what I feel when my amygdala kicks in with the fight-or-flight reaction (FFR) and I can’t make it stop. Equals General Anxiety Disorder. Looks pretty simple, but it isn’t. If I broke into rages instead of a panic attack, then my fury would beContinue reading “Fury + Fear = General Anxiety Disorder?”
That’s Not How Feminism Works, Sweetheart
I know you feel men and women should at least be equal, right? You’re very vocal about this, but I’ve seen you use your feminine charms to crush a besotted male. I’ve seen you order men around because you know they want to get between your thighs and that you have agency of yourself soContinue reading “That’s Not How Feminism Works, Sweetheart”
Toddlers: How Mine Survived
Raising children is a fine line between harnessing demons and treating them as humans. It’s a difficult job. I’m so glad I’m done. See, I despise toddlers. I despised my own and I despise other people’s toddlers. Even when toddlers do the cutest things, more often than not, I’ve had to wrestle with them theContinue reading “Toddlers: How Mine Survived”
